Hell Week

Isn't that the name of the week college students are pledging to sorority or fraternity. If so - HELLO I am NOT a college student nor am I interested in joining a sorority or fraternity - so what is up with the WEEK?

Let's start with my boss is on vacation - which in itself is usually a good thing, but this week our corporate office has decided that it is the week (first one I might add all year) that they need EVERYTHING from Tampa. Believe me I work for a micro-manager I do not know everything about our office, but Corp. had me on the phone (conference nationwide) asking answers about questions that they asked Dave a month ago - but it is the first time I have heard these questions and they do not like "ummm I really don't know - I can call Dave on Vacation and ask" as an answer. So about the third time I answered that, Chris Dave's bosses boss said "Twila - what do you know. " I was so angry - thinking I really need a new job!

Today I get in and have a ton of things to do and one of my technicians are in the office looking for some material (that I know is in) and he cannot find it so after almost 2 hours of searching for it to no advail. He leaves mad to call back almost 30 minutes later to tell me he has it in his truck all along - believe me I would be in JAIL right now if he was in the office and DAN would be NO MORE!!!!! (Actually it was only 1 out of the 10 things he was looking for but still I wanted to scream!)

Seth had his birthday party last night - he's 3 now (well will be on Saturday 4/30) he had a Bob the Builder birthday party - my friend is so creative she made the "dirt" dessert in the back of a dump truck - Seth et all thought it was GREAT!!!!!!!! Only draw back is Seth didn't feel so good - sinus infection is what the doctor is treating him for - after being sick (YAKKING) he was running around like a banshee so the party went on.

Randy is home and so my world is beginning to spin right again! We did a wedding this weekend - Donna & Andrew's (Donna is the girl that coordinated Brittney's wedding for Julie & I) Randy & Brittney stepped right in and helped me and everything went off GREAT (well everything I was to have control over - Coordinators do not "run" the decorating of a car - please note this disclaimer!). I so enjoy doing the coordinator job.......hmmmm maybe this could be an answer to my wanting a new job.

Crazy Thoughts

I haven't posted in awhile because I'm not sure what to say. So I've decided just to write some random thoughts that have been running around in my head.

1. What is wrong with this world. Why can't our children be safe? 2 young girls in the last month or so have been taken from their house (where a child should be safe!) and molested and murdered. This morning the news is talking about another girl that they do not believe is in danger but hasn't been seen by her mother for over a week. HELLO why are we just now hearing about this - can we not look for 2 girls at the same time? All I know is I'm afraid for my grandchildren and all the little ones growing up - Parents know who your inviting into your house - Children have lots of friends but they only have you as a parent - don't try to be their friends be THEIR PARENT even if they are angry with you it's your job to try to keep them SAFE!

2. Randy is traveling again and I always feel out of control when he's gone, not that I control him but that my world is NOT RIGHT when he's not home. It's like I'm not complete - hey does that mean he complete's me? Actually that would be a yes - "And the Two become One" kind of thing. Anyway he's only been gone for 18 hours and I already am more than ready for him to come home! Hurry home to me BABY.

3. Time - why do we spend so much time doing what we don't want to do and so little time enjoying life. I know part of it is we have to work to have money for living and fun doesn't come cheap. I say this because since the camping trip very little of my time has been spent just appreciating life and the miracles God does. What my time does go to is Work, cleaning, laundry, and stuff not important stuff just stuff. What I would like to spend my time on is Studying God's word, spending time getting to know my children - not just what's happening but what they think about stuff (Blogging has helped in that area but it still could be better). I find myself when on the phone with Nyki thinking quit telling me about Dixie & your in-laws tell me more about you and Jeremy and Rylee - not that I don't want to hear about the others at all just sometimes when we hang up I know more about what others have been doing than I do about Nyki, but you know THEY are who is weighing on her heart and I love her and want to hear about her and her concerns so I should be hearing about the others. Does that make sense? I catch myself on the precious time I have with Brittney staring at the TV not talking to her or visiting with her we talk more while we are online playing games than we do sitting in the same room. I just need to quit. I've been heard to say recently - "Don't tell me something is wrong if I can't fix it because it drives me crazy!" I've changed my mind tell me - I can pray and my inability to leave it with God is not your fault but mine - I just want to know what is on your heart so tell me anything and everything you want!

Okay see why I haven't written I have nothing to say yet everything to say - see why my sleep habits have gone down hill my mind goes like the above ALL THE TIME and doesn't seem to want to stop and let me sleep.

Hubbard Family - March 2005